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Ketenangan

sendiri menyepi
tenggelam dalam renungan
ada apa aku
seakan ku jauh dari ketenangan
perlahan ku cari
mengapa diriku hampa
mungkin ada salah, mungkin ku tersesat
mungkin dan mungkin lagi
oh Tuhan aku merasa
sendiri menyepi
ingin ku menangis menyesali diri
mengapa terjadi
sampai kapan ku begini
resah tak bertepi
kembalikan aku pada cahayaMu
yang sempat menyala benderang di hidupku
perlahan ku cari mengapa diriku hampa
mungkin ada salah, mungkin ku tersesat
mungkin dan mungkin lagi
oh Tuhan aku merasa sendiri menyepi
ingin ku menangis menyesali diri, mengapa terjadi
sampai kapan ku begini, resah tak bertepi
kembalikan aku pada cahayaMu yang sempat menyala
oh Tuhan aku merasa sendiri, aku merasa sendiri
sampai kapan begini, resah tiada bertepi
ooh ku ingin cahayaMu benderang di hidupku

Stranger

I had meeting today at 3 o'clock. Unfortunately, I've missed it.
You don't have to guess why I missed it. People who know me will be like "yaaa you take a nap for 5 minutes but at the end it was 5 hours napping." Well, rest in peace Ainil.

I feel relieved right now because I think Allah has answered my prayers. It was hard for me to swallow the bitterness anyway but I believe in what He has planned for me.

The proposal he made and the decision I've made, I'm not regretting it at all. The fact is, when I was trying to figure out everything, one by one happened and I think all of them by my side. So, maybe this is the answer & move on.

Frankly, it was hard to forget something that had happened in your life except what your teachers had taught you in school. (it is easier to forget why???) It took time to remedy yourself and on that moment you will realize that you only have yourself. (aha)

No, I'm kidding. Thanks for those who with me whenever ups & downs.*hug*

This post is not an appreciation post or memorable post or whatever you called it. It's just my thought, my conclusion thought.

If you reading this, for the last time I wanna say thank you. I'll keep all the things that you gave me because they are useful anyway. Pardon me. You asked me to forgive you and honestly I already 'forgive & forget'. Wishing you have better life than now. You came to my life and taught me lessons & thanks for that. From now on, you're just a stranger for me. So, if you bump into me or my family, just glance and walk away.